Breathe.
This is something I've been telling myself for the last couple of hours
because right now I can't even think straight. My head is all over the place.
I'm excited one second, scared the next, sad and then reality hits...oh fuck I
need to get this done and that done. I leave for Naples, Italy in 2 sleeps for
6 months. I thought I had to fly out on Thursday to get there for Friday but I
actually need to be there for Thursday because I start work on Friday.
I`m flying into Rome on Thursday at 9:30am and from there I will take a
train into Naples which will be really cool considering I love trains. I don`t
even know where to begin with packing because we are told to pack light....yeah
okay there. Do you know who I am? I'm the one that packs a huge suitcase for a weekend
trip because I never know what to wear. I'm doing my very best to choose wisely
and keep telling myself I can always shop in ITALY!!!! This is where I do my
happy dance.
It's now 1:00am and I'm packing while watching Nick and Jessica; The
Newlyweds. Laugh. Laugh it up. I know they are broken up but I’ve always loved
them together and it makes me happy to watch the show. I'm still trying to pack
and I just had a little panic attack. I don't think anything has really hit me
yet and I'm not sure when it will hit me but I just had a small dose of it. I'm
very family oriented and I’ve never missed a huge holiday. The thought of
missing Christmas Dinner and Boxing Day at the Kurek's kills me. I’ve only missed
one Boxing Day event due to being sick in bed one year but other than that I
have been to all of them. The thought of not being there makes me cringe. The
thought of missing Lincoln, Adella, Luke, London and Emerson growing up for 6
months makes me sad and I think I'm scared they are going to forget who Auntie
Amanda is. But I can't do that to myself because I know this is a great opportunity
and I need to go for it. I once heard that “the things you are most scared of are
usually the most worthwhile” and I totally agree with that statement
with all of my heart.
I've got so much to do so I will end this post for now.... ~A~
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