Rockstar Ronan

A couple of months ago I bought my new journal. I had finished my previous one and I was excited to start writing my thoughts on a fresh new page but for some reason I could never bring myself to start writing in it. I originally was going to start this blog if I got the cruise job I applied for a couple months back. This way my family and friends can follow me through my journey while I was away at sea. But I decided why not just make this my new journal. Why write in two different places when I can get everything down at once? Plus, people sometimes have a hard time reading me and maybe this can be a way for them to understand my crazy Gemini thoughts (ha-ha).

Recently, Taylor Swift released a song called "Ronan" and if you know how I am with music, I like to rip apart each lyric, melody and find out what everything is about and really feel what the artist is singing about. Through my research I learned that this song was written for a boy named Ronan Thompson who lost his fight last year from Neuroblastoma, an aggressive childhood cancer. Taylor wrote the song by reading Ronan's mom, Maya, blogs that she started when Ronan was first diagnosed with it. I have since read most if not all of her blogs and have shed many tears at night for this little boy who has captured my heart. It really makes me angry because I can't believe this happened to a sweet blue eyed little boy who was just starting his life. It also angers me because it all hit close to home since I lost my Aunt Linda and Papa W. to cancer. When my Aunt died, I wanted to do something to help out with Cancer Patients, just volunteer so I can somewhat ease their pain even if that meant painting their finger nails or talking to them about something other than cancer. Unfortunately, hospital protocols with volunteering requires one to volunteer for a minimum of one year and I couldn't give them that commitment when I was so unsure of where I was going to be after I graduated from school. The thought never left the back of my mind but time slowly passed and so did five years. Because of Taylor`s new song, I am now sitting here late at night wondering how I can be of help with fighting cancer and finding a cure for this awful, sickening disease. I feel that donating money just doesn`t seem enough for me to do. I just feel like I need to be with people that are diagnosed and make them smile, laugh and ease their pain for a little bit. I wish I was a doctor but I`m not but couldn`t I be a Patch Adams without the doctor title? Sometimes, I think my weakness is that I care too much about things but this has always been me and I think it can be a positive thing. You can read about Ronan's story, donate to his foundation and learn more about the awful disease that took his life at rockstarronan.com. Please help spread awareness about neuroblastoma to help find a cure.

 

Anyway, I shall end this rambling for tonight but the nice thing from all of this research that I've done the past week, I have fallen in love with the name Ronan and will keep it as a name I'd like to name my child one day if it's a boy.

~A~