Where in the world will I be?

I just received my medical results back and I passed so the doctor stamped my papers employable. The process for this job is really exhausting and at times I just want to say fuck it and move on but this is something that is on my bucket list so I can't give up now. So what's next? It's a waiting game for now. I'm waiting to see where I'll be shipped off to and as I typed that sentence, I realized how much I dislike using that word. Shipped; it makes me think I'm being deployed somewhere but really that's exactly what will happen... they will ship me out to a boat. Is there another word I can use for this? Maybe send is a better choice. I wonder where I'll be. Will I be in Australia, South America, Miami, Mexico or LA? I love the feeling of not knowing where I'll be which is unlike me. Usually, I dislike surprises and I need to have somewhat of an idea so I can plan a little. With very few surprises in life I will definitely enjoy this waiting game.

 

I’ve been doing a lot of research for childhood cancer and trying to figure out a way of how I can make a difference. I think because of all of the research I’ve been doing and the different stories I’ve read, I’m now dreaming about cancer. The dreams aren’t awful but they aren’t sunshine and rainbows. If anything, it makes me want to do that much more to raise awareness. I put my name in to volunteer and got a reply back where I have to fill out forms so I’m going to do that and hopefully I won’t need a one year commitment to help volunteer. It really kills me to see that is the protocol if you want to work with cancer patients. It’s the situation I’m in right now where I don’t know when I’m going to leave that is putting a damper on all of this. I’ve thought about going back to school to become a nurse but I know deep down inside I wouldn’t be able to handle a simple task such as sticking a needle in someone’s arm. I just wanted to thank everyone again who have sent me nice messages about this blog. I know some people have questioned it and don’t really understand why I am writing but they won’t say it out loud.

 

 Anyway, I will end this post tonight because my runs are kicking my butt hardcore and I’m tired. Plus, 5:20am wakeup call for cross fit is going to come really soon and I don’t need my cousin buzzing a billion question marks to my phone to make sure I’m up. (Lea-I do appreciate the wake up calls lol)